Useless Magic

Use·less/ˈyo͞osləs/adjectivenot fulfilling or not expected to achieve the intended purpose or desired outcome.Mag·ic/ˈmajik/nounthe power of apparently influencing the course of events by using mysterious or supernatural forces.I'm tired.I want to live like the ladies on Instagram who had somehow beat their demons with gratitude, and a positive attitude.The more I failed at achieving my optimal level of happiness the more I thought how it was all useless.Not useless for existing, but useless because I couldn't do it.Useless Magic.About eight months into it my healing journey I was completely blindsided. I fell into one of the worst depressions I had ever experienced. Never in my life had I ever felt that void of emotion, and been that broken. I was so confused why I was feeling that way when the things that depressed me before were long forgiven."Useless Magic" is an anthology that takes you down the dark side of depression, and anxiety as you heal.Mental health is still so stigmatized, and I think we need to stop putting a pink bow on our panic attack, and pretend that we are fine.Sorry chick from Mean Girls no one is giving hugs and cake here.I'm giving you the raw, ugly sides of what I went though when depression invited itself on MY healing journey.